@ Ghost - Even though you feel the stress, it sounds like you are finding your way through it and out it, too. I DEFINITELY recommend a therapist/counselor -- but not someone who simply sticks you on anti-depressants and sends you on your way. But someone to listen to you, and help you learn how to deal with the stress life is going to continue to throw at you can make all the difference.
I had HORRIBLE teenage years, and although I didn't actually attempt suicide, I used to imagine falling asleep and never waking up. I didn't "fit in" because I was always very independent - and finally it just got SO BAD (when I was almost 16) something in me just got pissed off enough I started realizing "it's NOT me, it's THEM!" and gradually began feeling a little stronger and less affected.
You're finding your own path, Ghost, and you WILL make mistakes, and people (like that online school) WILL be unfair. That will never, ever stop. But you can learn (literally day-by-day) to let the stressful things in life bother you less and less (that deep breathing idea works good -- and yes, screaming in a pillow!
). And we're here for ya too. 
