Thoughts and opinions on suicide and depression

[Ghost]

I know this is a sensitive subject to certain people but I want to hear people's advice and opinions. If this subject is too sensitive I understand if this thread gets removed.

Now a year ago I had really bad depression which I wrestled with for a few years. It isn't as bad it was a year ago but to this day I still suffer from depression. Now I'm 15 years old and I am currently in High school and I'm during OK socially; but a few years ago I was bullied a lot which I eventually overcame. This did affect me to a certain degree but some stuff at home also affected me. I'm currently living with a single parent and I do not live with my father because he is not a very good person which did a toll on me. (I haven't spoken to him in two years.) But basically I still have this fear of becoming just like him and other stuff that goes on. Financially my house hold gets enough money to get by. (otherwise I wouldn't be here)

I really wasn't happy with how my life was. Things have improved but I'm still not completely happy. Last year was the worst because that's when it really hit me and I contemplated suicide many times and I even attempted to end my life once which I'm glad was unsuccessful. Right now I'm doing my best to keep a positive outlook on things and hoping things improve.

Last year was also the same time I was interested in Tezuka. Now that I've seen his series, Astro Boy especially I value the lives of others and my own a lot more after seeing Tezuka's series. So in a way, Astro Boy did help me.

So feel free to give me or anyone here advice or your opinion. I just needed to get this out and open up I guess.

[jeffbert]

I would like to talk about this, but not publicly, because it is a heavy subject. Look for my PM in your forum mail inbox.

[Ghost]

I would like to talk about this, but not publicly, because it is a heavy subject. Look for my PM in your forum mail inbox.

Alright man.

[AprilSeven]

keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, Ghost -- I'll PM you too (might be a couple days, I'm workin' overtime). Astro/Tezuka got me through a lot too. You're very wise to use the positive things around you to build you up. You've got a LOT of talent -- sometimes the people who go through the hardest circumstances have the most to share with the rest of us - this is quite possibly the road you are already on.

You got friends here!!

[Astro Boy2866]

Hey, we're all here to help and we've all been through some tough times and unfortunately we have to live with it. Like April said, it's good to surround yourself with positve things, for me as well, it's Astro Boy. I'll PM you too.

[diehard67]

this site is actuley one of my primary social outlets, I don't evin want to think about how screwed up I might be if I havant tripped over this wounderfull community.

[Ghost]

Yea, after spending years on xbox live, youtube, psn even and other websites. This is probably the best community I've seen thanks for the support guys.

[Astro Boy2866]

Actually, i used to spend all my free time on xbox live, especially since i got myself a pair of turtle beaches, but mw2 sucks now even though i have a modded controller, but now that i come here i'll be spending less time on live

[Astro Boy2866]

this site is actuley one of my primary social outlets, I don't evin want to think about how screwed up I might be if I havant tripped over this wounderfull community.

I've actually stumbled across this site acouple times and didn't think much of it untill one time i felt posting in the oh no thread and now i'm a member.

[MightyAstro]

I'm delighted to hear you are apparently coping better.

If you'd like to still talk about things I'll PM you also.