
I'm afraid that I've long lost my liking for the Astro Boy series in general, due to "old associations with not so pleasant stuff", however irrational this may sound, though I still like the character Uran - and of the course rest of Tezuka's masterpieces.
I guess I can appreciate my past "fangirl" self as an interesting stage of my life now. I was so different back then, but going through that phase was important because things I did at that time (unknowingly) shaped myself little by little into who I am now. For instance, while writing those detective stories, I stumbled upon a website on writing called Springhole.net and rather accidentally I learned about Sues, the difference between Fan Fiction Style writing and Novel-Style Writing, and later on, I read on Wikipedia and other sites about why yaoi just isn't very realistic. After learning new things about storywriting from the Internet, I started re-reading the non-manga books about people and life I liked when I was younger, and I just suddenly started seeing some things in a new light.